Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Heavy Thoughts Tonight...
Having an argument in my head regarding the "new normal" kind of Gig...I WON'T ACCEPT IT, BUT DON'T KNOW HOW TO RELEASE MYSELF FROM IT. Kind of sad tonight ;-( Wish I was able to feel more helpful and not such a burden. I'm not sure this is what anyone dreamt it would be like...So stiffled within my own head. Silent tears on my pillow. I wish I had an impact like I used to be able to. I wish I could erase it all and make it obsolete. Mobility is so much of who I am and even though I know my body is only the shell of me and not the soul of who I am, somedays, like today I WANT MY SHELL BACK.
Posted by Prayers for Jen at 8:40 PM