Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Heavy Thoughts Tonight...

Having an argument in my head regarding the "new normal" kind of Gig...I WON'T ACCEPT IT, BUT DON'T KNOW HOW TO RELEASE MYSELF FROM IT. Kind of sad tonight ;-( Wish I was able to feel more helpful and not such a burden. I'm not sure this is what anyone dreamt it would be like...So stiffled within my own head. Silent tears on my pillow.  I wish I had an impact like I used to be able to. I wish I could erase it all and make it obsolete.  Mobility is so much of who I am and even though I know my body is only the shell of me and not the soul of who I am, somedays, like today I WANT MY SHELL BACK.


  1. Jen,
    I discovered your blog last week and have been praying for you since. I'm in awe of your spirit midst the unimaginable pain. I will continue to pray for your body to be free of pain.
    Hugs from Indiana,

  2. Thank you very much. I hope you don't have melanoma, but if you do I'm sorry andwish I could take it all aw. love ya

  3. Jen, you are having so MUCH of an impact - in a POSITIVE way!! On everyone that knows you (either personally or just through your blog)! :-) You are an amazing example of a fighter and someone that can beat this!!

  4. From a neighbor you don't know, praying for you and your family. Received this quote from a friend today and thought of you immediately:

    ASAP - Always Say A Prayer
    "God, Our Father, if it is your will, walk through my house and take away all of my worries and illnesses and please watch over and heal my family, in Jesus' name, Amen."